atmosphere, control. - I decided to join the army

I decided to join the army

until I realized that I am

unable to do a single pushup
medically ineligible to serve
scared shitless of everything and have been known to scream at the sight of a spider or frightening shadow (please don’t judge; both of those things can be fucking beastly)
a pacifist. kind of a problem.

note to self: stop watching those recruitment videos on youtube. (I think it all started through a long series of related videos from shots. sorry, wrong kind.)

Feb 4 2010

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About me

i keep christmas lights up year around. i have a shrine to jfk on my wall. my cats look like aliens. i don't take credit for the photos. disclaimers remind me of 7-11 and tahoe in the winter. i like joy division a little too much. i like sleeping in cold rooms. i tend to befriend inanimate objects much too often. i love my ukulele. i am going to live in latvia. i am currently in a hypomanic state. that is why i am writing so much.

"He is not so much performing as functioning... they look at him with that expression people get when they wonder if they have enough gas to get to the next station." - Roger Ebert on Ian Curtis